Vroom Vroom

Thursday, 19th November 2009, 7:10pm

I’d love to get my hands on this Citroen DS3. Something about it reminds me of the Mini. Too bad I can’t drive yet, but I can still enjoy the creativeness of their advert.

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Should I stay or should I go?

Sunday, 1st November 2009, 5:25pm

Sorry if you were trying to visit during the last week and had problems viewing the blog – I was changing web hosts and messed things up a little.

I’m thinking about quitting my job tomorrow, but I’m not sure of what else I could do to keep afloat. I’ve been thinking of leaving there for over a year and a half, since before my previous manager left, but I’ve carried on there in the hopes of finding another suitable job. Nothing promising has materialised yet, though I’ve been looking at newspapers and websites.

The trouble is that I don’t want to carry on with admin / reception work; I’ve been working in administration for the past 7 years and I just find it really draining, not to mention unfulfilling.

As an introvert too, I think I find my current job particularly difficult because I’m not naturally good at coping with constant interruptions. I also have a high level of sensitivity, so I often absorb the tensions of others around me. Add an workplace fraught with office politics, and you have my nightmare working environment.

Since my predecessor left in January, I’ve taken on a lot of her duties, and it’s basically impossible to do my job in the hours allocated to it. I’ve been juggling a lot of balls in the air, and it’s inevitable that I’ll drop a ball or two from time to time, and then I get it in the neck. They’ve told me that they can’t pay me overtime when I stay late, so either I give up my own time and stay late to complete various tasks that I wasn’t able to complete earlier due to various interruptions and emergencies, or leave the work undone and get criticised later.

Last week I overheard my manager and a colleague of mine having a laugh at my expense; a few months ago my manager also suggested that I should consider leaving, as I seemed unhappy…

In the current economic climate, I know that I should be happy to have a job, even one that I hate. After all, I only work 3 days a week, and the money is pretty good.

However, I exhaust myself so much when I’m at work that I often end up in bed for much of Thursday and Friday recovering. It has even gotten to the point where I tell friends to call me later in the week as I know I won’t have much energy to be social on my workdays. It stresses me out so much that I often don’t sleep properly, worrying about work issues in the middle of the night.

The idea of working part-time was originally to give me time to write and study, but it hasn’t turned out that way. I had to withdraw from a home study photography course a while ago as I couldn’t focus on it adequately.

A few people have suggested taking time off sick due to stress (like my predecessor did), but I’d rather not do that if I can avoid it. I’d rather leave and get on with my life.

The question is, what can I do next? I’ve been trying to make money online, but the money I’ve been making from my main site has decreased since last year and definitely isn’t enough to replace my earnings. I have several plans for new projects, but my energy levels are so low that I don’t focus on any for much time.

Other than that, I guess that I could look into temping. Maybe just a change of scene would be good for me. I’ve also thought about teaching English abroad, but I don’t think I’d enjoy teaching a class of people. I’ve also signed up to freelancer.com to see if I could get some web design / coding work, but it’s early days yet.

In one way, there aren’t many barriers stopping me from taking a chance; I don’t have to support a family, and I don’t have a mortgage or any real commitments. If I took off tomorrow for Alaska I’d only have to promise my mother to call her everyday.

My fear is that I’ll never leave this job if I don’t give myself a kick up the butt. The thought of leaving and jumping into the unknown is scary, but equally scary is the idea of staying where I am for another year. I have some money saved, so I could manage for a few more months without a job.

A while ago I made myself a promise that I’d leave this job by the end of this year. As I’d need to give them 2 months’ notice of my departure, that brings us to tomorrow.

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Time Lord

Tuesday, 20th October 2009, 8:36pm

If you’re in the UK, remember to enjoy your extra hour in bed (or in the bath) on Sunday morning. The rest of you can just enjoy the show…

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Another meme borrowed from Samurai Frog

Sunday, 18th October 2009, 5:48pm

Meme Royale

Appearance:
I am 5’4 or shorter.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different colour.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I’ve had braces.
I wear glasses.
I’d get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

– I’m 5ft5, so not far off. Sometimes I wish my hair was brown instead of black, but at the moment I’d like to have blue/black hair like a manga character. I tried a dye that was supposed to give me that colour, but it just turned my hair even blacker.

Family/Home Life:
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I’ve lost a child.

– When I was a kid I called my dad a bastard for some reason, and met with the slipper of doom.

Embarrassment:
I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve snorted while laughing.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I’ve had stitches.
I’ve broken a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had surgery.
I’ve had chicken pox.

Traveling:
I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
I’ve been to Canada.
I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
I’ve been to Japan.
I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I’ve been to Spain.
I’ve been to Africa.
I’ve been to France.

– I’ve wanted to visit Canada for ages.

Experiences:
I’ve been lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve been to a casino.
I’ve been skydiving.
I’ve gone skinny dipping.
I’ve played spin the bottle.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a play.
I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
I’ve played chicken.
I’ve played a prank on someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.
I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I’ve eaten Sushi.
I’ve been snowboarding.

– The casino was in Madeira, and I went in there to change some money into Euros. I played Brutus in Julius Caesar at school. The prank was Knock Down Ginger (ringing someone’s doorbell then running away). I’ve met several guys from the internet over the years.

Relationships:
I’m single.
I’m in a relationship.
I’m available.
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’ve gone on a blind date.
I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I’ve been divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

– I was around 14 or 15 and dating a slightly older guy. He wanted me to say that I loved him, but I didn’t feel that way and said that I cared for him. He kept on asking me, and eventually I just told him what he wanted to hear.

Sexuality:
I’ve had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I’ve kissed a member of the same gender.
I’ve had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve had sex outdoors.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

– Well, I’ve kissed one or two of those internet guys on our first dates…

Honesty/Crime:
I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve run a red light.
I’ve been suspended from school.
I’ve witnessed a crime.
I’ve been in a fist fight.
I’ve been arrested.
I’ve shoplifted.

– I gave my mum the impression that I was in San Francisco, when I was on a 2 day stopover in New York. I nicked a drink from a shop, just to see if I could do it. Then I gave it to my mate cos I didn’t want it. I was in a couple of fights at school. A couple of times I’ve witnessed shoplifters grabbing stuff then running out of the shop. Me and a few friends got in trouble for writing notes about a teacher. Instead of a full suspension, we couldn’t go on an activities week and had to stay at school and do cleaning work.

Drugs/Alcohol:
I’ve consumed alcohol.
I’ve smoked a cigarette.
I(‘ve) smoke(d) pot.
I regularly drink.
I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
I’ve done hard drugs.
I’ve been addicted to an illegal drug.

– I’ve taken painkillers in anticipation of needing them, at the beginning of various tedious meetings for which I’ve had to take minutes.

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Relator

Sunday, 20th September 2009, 6:38pm

I came across this song recently and really liked it. I’d never heard of Peter Yorn before, and I wasn’t a fan of ScarJo’s previous musical outing, but this was a pleasant surprise. Their voices blend nicely and this song is like a bittersweet slice of summer.

I listened to some more tracks from their Breakup album on Spotify and there are some very nice songs on there. Scarlett’s voice sounds quite processed on Relator, but sounds more natural in some of the other songs.

I like the video too, with its sepia cast and interesting focussing (e.g. I liked the bit when the camera focussed on his beard).

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