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as long as it’s fried.
i’m on the edge of something. i need to stop before i fall. a lot of people don’t seem to change for the better until they’ve reached rock bottom; i’m not there and i don’t want to get to that stage but i can’t motivate myself to change. life sucks. i wish i could start over.
Blogger hasn’t been working properly for the past few days, so it’s taken more than a day for my Sunday posts to appear on the site. I’m thinking of moving to WordPress or another blogging program, but I like the fact that Blogger is so popular, and that it links so many blogs together in one place. I’ve had quite a few visitors via the next blog button, so it’s definitely useful. As I’m using my own domain name and webspace, it wouldn’t be too tricky to set up a new blog, but I’m a lazy girl and can’t be arsed right now. However, if Blogger continues to act up I might have to take my business elsewhere (even though I’m not paying)…
It’s that time of the month. I feel restless and frustrated. I wanna hit something, I wanna stomp around and take it all out on some deserving person. Stay out of my way! (only kidding)
Wednesday is the start of NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). It’s a wacky scheme which brings loads of people together online in the aim of writing a 50,000 word novel(la) during the month on November (average 1667 words/day). I had a go last year and got up to 15k, which was still an achievement for me. I’m not sure about doing it again this year, but there’s a great feeling of camaraderie in the forums so I might get involved somehow, even if I don’t aim to meet the target. The focus of NaNo is quantity over quality, so it’s okay to write a load of crap, which is quite freeing in some ways.
In the meantime I need to write a 3000+ word story by Wednesday night for my writing course, so I might not be able to start right away anyway.
Actually, I’m not feeling very blue at all. I’m more of a chilled-out mint-green (not alluding to jealousy here). I’m currently enjoying Robin Thicke’s new album – The Evolution of Robin Thicke, which has not supplanted his previous album in my affections. It’s slicker than Beautiful World, which is nicely abrasive, like kissing a guy with a few hours of stubble, but I like both for matching some of my diverse moods.
T-Mobile offered me a free upgrade in exchange for keeping my contract for another year, so I opted for a Motorola Pebl. It arrived yesterday, but I’m just not feeling it. It looks and feels nice enough, but it has the memory capacity of a flea, so I’d have to delete my text messages whenever they exceed 17 (I currently have about 200 on my Samsung e820). So I’m sticking to the Samsung and giving the Motorola to my dad. My mum will be miffed at not getting the phone, but she’s docking at Antigua today midway through her Caribbean cruise, so she can’t have everything.
I was reading a magazine yesterday which featured an article about women who have changed careers successfully. The article mentioned the theory that there are multiple intelligences, which include the linguistic and logical/mathematical intelligences that are normally tested in school and via IQ tests. The other kinds of intelligence, according to Howard Gardner, the psychologist who put forward this theory in the 1980s, are:
I did a couple of tests to assertain where my intelligence lies, and in both tests I was most skilled in the intrapersonal and musical intelligences. My lowest scores were in the nature and body smarts. At first I was disappointed that I didn’t have a higher score in the linguistic intelligence, but after thinking about it for a while I realised that rather than being a test of intelligence per se, these tests were instead showing how my mind operates. It’s not set in stone, I can work more on the other skills to improve my interpersonal skills, etc should I wish to. It does make sense though. I have been working with music for more than 11 years, so I should be more developed in that area, and I do spend a lot of time thinking introspectively. Suggested careers for someone with my strengths: counsellor, psychologist, writer, muso… quelle surprise…
I would like to be more of a balanced person, so I’m seeing this as a way of assessing my current mode of living. At the moment I do feel divorced from my body: I don’t take care of it and it shows. The photography that I’m doing is improving my spatial skills, especially as my course focuses on composition (colour, shape, etc). I need to look outside of myself more, at nature and other people. That said, I need to work within my comfort zone, or near to its outer limits anyway. I’ll let you know how it goes.
I’m not lying, look here. I may just have to get myself a "life experience degree" from Brixton Uni for $299. For any international visitor, Brixton is a famous culturally-diverse area of South London – like Peckham, it’s another essential place to visit in London). It’s too bad that there isn’t an actual uni in Brixton – just think of the degrees that they could offer… PhD Gangster Economics, BA (Hons) History of Ganja, Introduction to Hustling… the options are endless!
Nothing much going on here. The spacebar on my laptop is sticking, which is quite annoying.
I felt a bit out of place at the uni this morning but things improved after an hour or so. I’m too sensitive.
One bit of good news: yesterday I got paid. As the uni owed me loads of annual leave and time-off-in-lieu, I got it all back in a lump sum. It was tempting to treat myself, but instead I quickly transferred the funds to my ISA and paid off my credit card bill. So I’m doing pretty well financially right now but I won’t be able to save as much when I go part-time.