Back to life, back to reality
Back to the here and now yeah
Show me how, decide what you want from me
Tell me maybe I could be there for you

However do you want me
However do you need me

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Anyway. Here’s the blow by blow.

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Monday:

Work: my colleague Kay was getting on my nerves so much! She was fussing and stressing all over the place as she was going on holiday the following day (apparently). I got that call from the credit card company and felt kind of helpless/hopeless. I texted my friend Miguel to ask him if he could give me back some of the money that he still owes me. He said that he could give me £50, and we agreed to meet up the following day after my work.
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Express yourself, don’t repress yourself

And I’m not sorry
It’s human nature
And I’m not sorry
Im not your bitch don’t hang your shit on me

You wouldn’t let me say the words I longed to say
You didn’t want to see life through my eyes
Express yourself, don’t repress yourself
You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room
And silence me with bitterness and lies
Express yourself, don’t repress yourself

Did I say something wrong?
Oops, I didn’t know I couldn’t talk about sex
I musta been crazy
Did I stay too long?
Oops, I didn’t know I couldn’t speak my mind
What was I thinking

You punished me for telling you my fantasies
I’m breakin’ all the rules I didn’t make
Express yourself, don’t repress yourself
You took my words and made a trap for silly fools
You held me down and tried to make me break
Express yourself, don’t repress yourself

Did I say something true?
Oops, I didn’t know I couldn’t talk about sex
I musta been crazy
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didn’t know I couldn’t talk about you
What was I thinking

Express yourself, don’t repress yourself

I’m not apologizing
Would it sound better if I were a man?
You’re the one with the problem
Why don’t you just deal with it

Would you like me better if I was?
We all feel the same way
I have no regrets
Just look in the mirror

I don’t have to justify anything
I’m just like you
Why should I be?
Deal with it

Absolutely no regrets.

Artist: Madonna
Album: Bedtime Stories
Year: 1994
Written by Madonna, Dave Hall, S. McKenzie, K. McKenzie, M. Deering

You gotta have a J O B
if you wanna be with me
No romance with no finance (x2)

That old song just popped into my mind. It’s half true, I prefer a guy to be able to support himself, but I’m not a gold digger and I don’t need a sugar daddy.

I had lunch with my mate Miguel today. He nearly persuaded me to think about re-entering the dating world. His point was that if I don’t present myself as available, guys won’t think that they have a chance with me. It’s logical I guess, but I don’t know if I’m ready to be involved again.

Maybe I should stick to the books.